idk since when, i've always hated the hols to come.
feelings fade away, ppl die of boredom, we have more hw.
not much hw this time though..
all the while i'm still alive is that i'm living for someone.
that heavy feeling came back again.
happy feeling comes for less then a minute and it leaves without a word.
and sadness comes in a gush.
i'm really sick and tired of living.
yeah, ppl might say that life isn't perfect. i agree, but,
my life is not just imperfect, it crossed the border of worst stage.
every night before i go to sleep, i tell myself tmr will be better for countless times alr.
at the end of the day, i still feel the same like the day before.
maybe i should wish that i pass on halfway when i'm asleep.
till today, i've never hated my life so much.
maybe i won't be here anymore tmr, who knows?
i don't ask for more anymore, i just want you.

i never wanted holidays to come.
i never wanted to school to end.
coz i didn't want that feeling to fade away.